someone to talk to. Years of socially isolating myself have made my friends stop asking to do things with me. I have a new friend now but she’s older with kids so I don’t want to bother her. I’ve been thinking I’ve been needing a boyfriend but I can barely make eye contact with most people. I don’t need a relationship, I just need someone to talk to.
I like being alone, but not this alone.
What I need is a friend who’s as awkward and lonely as I am. That way nobody’s the loser of the friendship. Someone who likes cartoons way too much and stumbles with their words as much as I do. Someone who doesn’t need a relationship to feel validated as a person. Someone who’ll watch a show or movie with me in complete non-awkward silence save for explosive giggle fits. Someone who plays video games and will let me watch. Someone who understands that if I don’t call or text, it’s not because I don’t like them.